"It takes such a low class person to be cruel to a six year old child "~Susana M. Regan Cloutier

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In Loving memory of our favorite bad dog wannabe
BooBoo Casillo
His memory with all the kids will live on forever. 





(Flyer's Game 7/26/08)

"Solomon's wisdom "

In 1 Kings 3:5-14, God visits the newly crowned
King Solomon in a dream, and offers him
anything he pleases.

(Sox Game 7/18/2008)

Solomon asks for

"an understanding heart to judge
Your people, to discern between good and evil -

for who is able to judge this great people of Yours?" 

Pleased with his non-materialistic wish, 

God tells him that not only will he receive a
greater intellect than any other man

who will ever live, but also great wealth,
along with widespread fame and respect,

"which thou hast not asked, both riches and honour:
so that there shall not be any

among the kings like unto thee all thy days".

A famous account of Solomon's wisdom
is found in 1 Kings 3:16-28. 






Two "harlots"
approach Solomon,

bringing with them a single baby boy.

Each mother presents the same story -
She and the other woman live together.

One night, soon after
the birth of their respective children,

the other woman
woke to find that she had smothered
her own baby in her sleep.

In anguish and jealousy,
she took her dead son and
exchanged it with the other's child.

The following morning,
the woman discovered the dead baby,

and soon realized that it was not her own son, but the other's.

After some deliberation,
King Solomon called for a sword to be brought before him.

He declared that there is only one fair solution:
the live son must be split in two,
each woman receiving half of the child.

Upon hearing this terrible verdict,
the boy's true mother cried out,

(Brookfield Zoo 7/2008)



"Please, My Lord,

give her the live child

- do not kill him!

"true mother's

instincts were to protect her child,

while the liar revealed that her only
motivation was jealousy.

However, the liar, in her bitter jealousy, exclaimed,
"It shall be neither mine nor yours - divide it!'

Solomon instantly gave

the baby to the real mother,
realising that the true mother's
instincts were to protect her child,

while the liar revealed that
her only motivation was jealousy. 

(Scout Twilight Camp 7/2008)


(Chilli's 7/2008)

(Boys with the Flyers Dancers 7/26/2008)

I would like to take a brief moment to thank an amazing woman 
for all of her guidance and understanding during my DCFS case. 

She always said I would remember her lol.
Thankyou Mrs. Brazil for the guidance 
and encouragement
that helped me to grow
into the "TRUE MOTHER" I am today.

At a time when nothing seemed to go right,
she helped me to grow and learn.

And without her I would never have remembered the story 
of the true mother in Solomon's wisdom.

This was the verse that gave me the strength
to make the hardest as a mother.

As a mother, I was conflicted and had to trust in God.
So, even though those adoptive parents lied,
I would still be the "True mother".
I would still try to put all my children's needs first,
without a selfish heart.


Ashley will be celebrating her 12th birthday
 on September 26, 2008.

She is the eldest of our two girls 
whom were adopted (under a false open adoption)

Brookfield Zoo meet the Sox 
2008

Everyday, children are taken from their families
by the "Department of Children and family Services."

Parents are supposed to be given the chance to
get their children back home.

Well, we were one of those families.

We fought for 7 years against LCFS. 

They made us go through individual,
marital, family counseling, 3 hour bus rides to
and from visits, (even while I was pregnant with my first son).

I got an apt, my drivers license, I got my degree and I did it all.

It was 7 long years of FIGHTING.

The 7 YEAR FIGHT was LONG.

The girls needed permanency.
It seemed unfair to rip them
from the only stable home they had for 7 years.

As I looked into my son Christian's face,
I imagined

"HOW WOULD HE FEEL IF THEY TOOK
HIM FROM ME AT THIS POINT?"

Then I looked at my newborn Gabriel?
It was amazing the timing of bringing him into this world.
He was my precious gift during an ugly court battle.

He never knew he wouldn't meet his eldest sister.
He never knew he had sisters.
That is not until Christian started teaching him their names and faces from pictures.

These pictures still hang on our walls and live on various shelves throughout our house. 

I fought against the foster parents.

I tried for soo long, but after having 2 more sons,

I faced the hardest descision in the world

FOR ANY
TRUE MOTHER 

Do I KEEP FIGHTING AND RISK ALL OF THEM 

OR LET GO OF THE 2 BEAUTIFUL GIRLS, 
WHO HAVE BEEN IN THE SAME PLACE FOR 7 YEARS?

NO ONE, NOT EVEN OUR LORD AND SAVIOR,
JESUS CHRIST, IS A PERFECT. 

WE ALL MAKE OUR MISTAKES, AND IF WE ARE
LUCKY, WE GET THE CHANCE TO GROW UP. 

AS WELL, AS LEARN FROM THEM.

I LEARNED, THAT AS HARD AS IT WAS TO LET GO, I LOVED ALL MY CHILDREN

ENOUGH,

TO NOT LET THEM ENDURE ANY MORE OF THE
tug of war feeling.

AFTER ALL, IT WASN'T THEIR FAULT,

THAT THIS SITUATION EVEN EXISTED.

I wanted my girls to stay where they had been stable now,
it has been 10 years. 





It turns out LCFS WRONGFULLY
put my girls in a PREADOPTIVE HOME.

This was while we were supposed
to be in the process of reunification.

Lord knows, I tried to fight it.

But, LCFS made me out to be the
bad mother who didn't want her kids to be happy.

(Puerto Rican fest 2008)
They would make me feel bad for buying even school clothes for our girls.

"Well, don't you want to save your money?"
Why don't you let this family treat them like their own while they are there?"
So, I reluctantly agreed.

Little, did I know then, this would be a huge mistake.



Our case had many different caseworkers.
The ones who wanted to help us couldn't for fear of being
reprimanded by their money hungry supervisor.


Then there were the ones who were
 determined to make our lives hell. 


(Fishing Derby June 2008)

Instead of trying to keep James and I together 
as a parental unit, we were forced to seperate.

We were continuously put in 
awkard positions against each other.
So, rather than work together, we were torn apart.

Of course, it didn't help that these workers had issues of their own against any man.
They felt that a woman should be without a man or not have her kids at all.

(Pool summer 2008)
So, rather than address the issues that brought us to this point. The issues which led to losing our girls to begin with, they found a way to totally seperate our family. 




Mina was only two months old when the girls were taken.

It was gut wrenching to watch her grow up in the very system I fought to be out of as a child.

And my Ashley, for years, she cried for me.
She cried when she left me.

Ashley always told me to,"Remember to dream of me everyday, Mommy. I dream of you always."
I remember taking a micro cassette recorder to tape her.

I now would listen to her tape and cry.

How could this still happen to me?
I truly did EVERYTHING they asked of me!

(My sister and I at my 
wedding 1994)

I even got the stupid divorce.
And you know what it did?

Nothing at all to help me get these girls back.

(Fishing Derby 2008)

They never had no intention of ever giving us back our girls.
They just kept giving kids to the family. 

And the supervisor of LCFS, she kept calling the hotline to try
and get the courts to remove Christian.

(Meet the Sox 2008)

She was determined to win this battle over our girls.
She almost succeeded the last time.

Except that she failed to realize that I learned a few things over the years.
You have the right to appeal a founded hotline call.

Which I of course did. And her only witness was in jail
for fraud and deceptive practice.

I didn't win the final battle and get back our girls.
However, I left that one court appeals hearing with a great satisfaction.

(Fishing derby 2008)

I finally won against the mean supervisor.
She finally couldn't lie her way to steal anymore of my children from me!

The judge actually told the DCFS worker, "Stop wasting my time and this woman's time!
Do whatever you have to do to overturn this or I will."
God Bless that judge.
Finally,someone to see the reality of the situation.
Yes, I learned a lot over the years. Some of it was a few years to late.
However, I learned early enough to save our boys!

(Tough look lol)

It was a victory against the mean supervisor!

Later, I have learned she was fired from LCFS.
This was long overdue if you ask me.

(Sox post game)
Unfortunately, it was long after I gave up my rights.


But, I have the satisfaction of knowing she can't do it to anyone else.
She never got to keep our boys from me. 

(PR festival)
Thus, with all this knowledge, I can help save other mothers from this despair!




Apparently, the adoptive parents 
also had relatives in the court system to
assist in their adopting all these children, 
our girls included.

I just knew I had a tough road ahead
 when I met the family member who would assist 
in all of their conquered adoptions. 

I am disturbed that these people claimed 
to love my children but,
had them labeled as "SPECIAL NEEDS."


A term that ensures they continue to receive monetary compensation even after the adoption. 

Maybe they should just pay parents 
for their kids and 
hen we wouldn't have so many greedy people scamming the state for kids.
I found this out much too late and much to my dismay.

Sadly, I guess at least I know my taxes
 are helping care for our girls.

(Previous NEWS LINK ARTICLE ON KIDNAPPED
CHILD FROM a VISIT REMOVED TO COVER MYSELF from more harassment.

However, if you live out here in Illinois, 

it's Kinda hard NOT to notice that story 
seeing as it was all over the news.

(Note, I am not giving out identifying information 

to this family or their whereabouts but,to mine.

And I am exeercising my freedomn of Speech Amendment 

without interferring with the court order) 
However,it is very much PUBLIC KNOWLEDGE. 

And it is on the Internet website 
for ABC news Archives. 

Anyways, long before that lady
who kidnapped her kid
from a visit and went to jail like a dumb ---)


(December 2007)
James and I had
hundreds of visits.

(Summerfest 2008)

We never kidnapped our girls.
 I say, get a clue, we had common sense there buddy.

So, even if we are getting punished for
 that lady's actions, I am very offended.

It is wrong and we are not the ones 
whom left children
unattended during a visit!

Lord, I even called the 
"Adoptive parents to
 lend an ear of support."

But, as always DCFS white washed it. 
(Thus, one more reason the 
mean Supervisor would end up fired!)

And the ADOPTIVE PARENTS 
came
 out looking like saints. 

Heaven forbid, 
it could turn out they weren't.

Of course, the state of Illinois
 is quick to blame that all on Natural Parents. 

(I don't like the term birthparents,
 as it makes our kids sound like test tube babies.)


We may not be able to change the past 

but, we can DEFINITELY change the future! 
James is a year away from graduating college. 

He will be further going for his
masters degree in computer science. 
I became a Certified Nursing Assistant.

I am first and foremost a mom. 

I am the t-ball, karate and cub scouts mom. 

(Awards from President 6/2008)

I am the mom who prays with her sons everyday.
Everyday, we pray for our Ashley and Mina.

We talk to "God Jesus" as Gabi likes to say. 
We always ask for Ashley and Mina to be safe.
We ask that Abuela and Tia 
Linda be angels watching 
over them

I am the Domestic Violence Awareness and Parental Rights advocate.

I am the neighborhood watch block captain 
who supports her community
in anyway possible.

I am the woman who would stop in the middle of
anything to help the elderly or someone in need.

So, regardless of all that has happened, I am true to myself.
I know that God has great plans.

One day, we will see our girls again.
And they will know the truths for what they are.
They will know we loved them regardless of what anyone said.

They will know that we were forced to a court order of protection
as though we were criminals.

This was as a result of the insecurity and continued audascity of the "True Liars!"

All because I needed an outlet for our son as well as myself.
A way to ease our pain and suffering from their lies.

Well, heaven forbid, these people would fail to realize we 
aren't savage beasts who forgot we had daughters!

(Zoo Make a bear)

There hasn't been a second that has gone by 

in the last 5 years we would ever forget them. 

We love those girls just as much now 

as ever, if not more.

As, the years go by,James and I both 
realize how much we are missing out on. 

As, I watched my sister's child 

grow up and graduate junior high,

 I imagined Ashley's graduation.

(Chicquita's Graduation 5/28/2008)

I imagined my sister being in 

heaven unable to hug her child. 

James often, says he is their daddy. 

He said tonight that he is upset, 

" I can't be there to protect my girls as a dad should!" 

He encouraged me to keep up on this site so, 

our girls can one day find us.

Honestly, the only ones against this site 

was the adoptive parents.

I wonder why? 
Maybe because they know
 that I will be able to show that 
I kept my promise all these years. 

Even though, I couldn't in the way I wanted, 
they were always thought of.

It wasn't beacause we didn't 
try to keep our promise. 

The adoptive parents lied to us. 
They lied to our girls!
They lied to our son!


We never said we were saints. 

We never said we didn't have faults. 

And even now, we don't keep secrets from our sons.


They basically know why Ashley and Mina can't be here.
But, they also know that childhood isn't forever.


They both pray that one day,

 God Jesus will bring them home to find them! 

It saddens my heart. 

But, as the mom who is active in her sons lives,
I will not discourage prayers for their sisters.

I don't know who on earth made 
these people think that 
they are "Perfect Parents"? 
News flash! You aren't! 


I know cold blooded people who have more of a heart than you do!

But, this couple are no better
 than James and myself.

They are no better than any other parent.
At least I can say,
 I didn't lie to my children.
They sure did!

For goodness sakes,

 how could that man go into court

 saying our daughter is scared of us?

Does he honestly expect me to 
believe after years
 of making her think
we didn't love her that 
he would even bother to say 
we were trying to find her?

Guess what? I don't.

Great! so, they won their little order of protection! 

Guess, what? I realized that God still answered my prayers.

If not in the way I expected but, he did none the less. 

These people will have to keep
 tabs on us from a distance.

No doubt, they will be snooping around 
to see where we are. 

I bet they keep those ridiculous papers
 on them all the time.

Well, I don't. 
I know better. 
I am not a clueless individual.

I will not give them the satisfaction 
of trying to get me arrested. 

I am quite content in my home
a few counties away. 

He never mentioned to the judge that
we bumped into him on the route 88 right
after the adoption had been finalized. 
And that he promised yet, again to keep in touch.


(Oh, yeah, I still have that nice state's attorney's name. 

So, when Ashley turns 18 it will be public info.
Then she could hear for herself the truth.)

That the state's attorney, my LCFS counselor,
the former foster mother.
the friend who is an adopted mother and a friend of nearly 20 years witnessed.

This couple promised "OPEN ADOPTION"that was the only reason I agreed to sign these papers.
 
It was to ensure fairness to all the children. 

After all, it wasn't their fault 
how this situation turned out.

No matter what this couple told the girls, 

the court is obligated to tell the truth to them.

Yes, I have been doing my homework. 

So, again, the day will come.
And what lies will they say next?

And that the LCFS worker had 
sent my birthday present to
Mina back in 2003.

He conveniently left out that
 their police department told us
to send everything via us postal mail. 

This was the same day they called and 
filed a police report for us sending
a friend to deliver 
a stuffed unicorn for Mina's birthday.

He probably didn't know that 
we are familiar with his trips
to our local Mc Donald's. 

Lord,knows he passed us enough times.

This is in our Dupage county about half a mile from our house.

For a person putting and order of protection on us, 

I would think he should stay out of our town as well.
Apparently, they must feel this order is only one sided.

Actually, a part of myself finds it rather amazing.

I am amazed at how much trouble the
 "Adoptive parents" had to go through
to copy ALL OF MY SITES.


They had stuff I hadn't even remembered.And they are accusing
me of stalking them? Seriously?

I think they are just insecure.
Lord knows, I would be too if I lied!

I am not going to keep watching over my shoulder for them to send another sheriff to my door with papers.
Honestly, I think I might make the request myself for a continuance of this court order.

I will save them the trouble. 
Then it will be two more years of papers.
At least, I know I will have proof that I tried to stay in touch.I will have proof that they put this order of protection on us as a result of this very website.
(Which by the way the url was changed and the "identifying information was removed" last year February 27, 2007.)

I will have proof that I never forgot.
I will have proof that these people always knew where to find us.

Every year that passes is another year closer to Ashley being an adult with her sister soon to follow.


Honestly, what parents don't make mistakes as a teenager?
"So, they can stop using James as an escape goat!"

All this man could do was bring up the whole DCFS mess in civil court.
Like, hello, this was not juvenille court.

(McDonald's Playland)

We may have had our differences but, we have grown up as individuals
and as parents.

I hold my head up high regardless.
I gave birth to four beautiful children.
I will never deny or be ashamed of any of them.


I am only ashamed to have been so naive.
I let DCFS make a fool of me.
I was tired and didn't want any of my children
to be used as bait for DCFS.

Lord only knows they tried. I can't tell you how many times,
the supervisor called the DCFS hotline on us.

It was ridiculous. They would do anything to adopt out our girls.

I wanted all of our children to have a fair chance to be happy.
I sure didn't want Christian subjected to any more harassment.

They actually, had an investigator at my house the day I came home from a two week hospital stay. 

I looked at the man and said," Did you by chance notice, I have had my throat literally cut open? 

I have been home for one hour. Do you honestly, 
think I could have done anything to my son, 
from a hospital bed? 

And while unconscious none the less?

I had a thyroidectomy. I had nearly died.
I just wanted to come home to my son. 

Thus, DCFS wasted no time showing up at my door.

So, no I wasn't happy at all. 
I had to strip my 3 year old son for a stranger.
Just to prove,
 that I didn't allow my babysitters to assault him.
For goodness sake, he was with a couple.
 
They had three children of their own 
and were gracious enough to care for my child.

Well, needless to say that was unfounded.
It was unnecessary. 
It goes to show that DCFS is capable of anything.



I left out of this DCFS mess at least a STRONGER,
more PRODUCTIVE MOM and INDIVIDUAL.

James is graduating college in a year with a bachelor's degree.

Christian and Gabriel are thriving.
They miss their sisters. 

But, we know that they are out there and growing.
We know that it is for God 
to keep them safe until we meet again.

We are not bad people!
We were young naive parents who
 made poor choices.

But, we are adults now,with gained knowledge and wisdom.

We DID NOT KIDNAP OUR CHILD,
like their other adopted child's birthmother.

We gave this couple our daughters out of good faith.
We trusted they would allow the children t
o grow up and at least know each other.

(Morton Arboretum)

I would have been happy with a picture 
once a year at least.

Christian just wanted to see his sisters.
He just wanted to send cards. 

Well, we saw how that went didn't we? 




In November 2004,Christian sent a simple

Thanksgiving day card for his sisters.

He paid for it and wrote it out himself.

He begged me to send it for him.

I simply addressed it and then mailed it. 

Well, one day about a week later, I got my mail.
There was an envelope addressed to Christian.

I knew I recognized the writing.

However, I thought that maybe it 
was a nice letter in return for his card.

I was way wrong again!


It was sent back to him in an envelope written by the
"Adoptive Mother" with a nasty note.

Yes, it led to the immature selfish
letter written harshly to a six year old child.

But, these are supposed to be the people that love our girls?
Hello, get a clue?

I don't think they care much about a child's wellbeing unless they have something to gain.
Anyone, that truly cared for children, would never send something so, wrong to a 6 year old child.

Yet, I kept this letter, I waited for court to be over and now have posted it on this site.

If nothing else, for the satisfaction of knowing that one day, these girls will know.

And Christian still keeps his thanksgiving card unopened. 
He helps me with the upkeep of this site.
He hopes that one day, 
he will give it to his sisters in person.


(in court January 2007,the adoptive father had no response for this)

He simply said, "My wife said something came in the mail and she sent it back." 

The end result of a 7 year fight:
They got to adopt our kids and we never got to see them.
Our sons never got to keep a relationship with
their sisters.

Not even exchange pictures.
That in itself would have been a kind gesture.


WE ARE NOT NAIVE ANYMORE!
So, they can stop gloating. 


(and then? and then?
 He kept saying lol)

They don't have the power to make us feel inferior.

(Bug Eyes Arbor Day 2008)

We are stronger and wiser.
And even if the justice system fails us, God sees EVERYTHING!!"

(Please note that this site is and has been copyright protected since january 16, 2007)

All family photos amd writings are the 
property of Susan M. Regan_Cloutier.

I know you may wonder, why I would add  anything from when I was a little girl?

Well, the truth be told, until my mother passed away, I didn't think much about it.

As. I reflect on all the ups and downs, I can't help but, to recall my DCFS experiences as a child.

Granite, I was in another state but, DCFS is all the same.

I remember being in foster care as a child.

I had what DCFS labeled as the

"BEST COUPLE".

They loved kids soo much etc. 
They had adopted my foster brother 
Conjewel and his sister Lashonda.

They had a son of their own as well.
My sister and I were forced to sleep 
together on one bunk bed.


If we peed the bed, we had to scrub the 
sheets in a bucket outside the back yard.

(Chris rides bike)

I had to be a slave kinda like cinderella.

We scrubbed walls, moved barrels of rocks, dirt, garbage.

We shoveled and remodeled a whole backyard. 
We were never to speak of anything 
that went on in their house.

Yeah,we never got to play or have fun. 

(Mother's Day 2008)

There was only one thing that kept me going.

I had my brother and my sister.

We all stuck together like glue. 
We laughed together, cried together 
and caught fireflies togheter to help the time go by.

I remember we had to get rocks from a nearby creek.
My sister used to make Indian paint and we would do our faces. 

(Dairy Queen)
We pretended to be invisible. 
Yes, we needed the time to go by.
We loved school. It was like a getaway for us.

(Schaumburg Park)

And then we would go back to our foster home.

We weren't allowed to watch television.
And we weren't even allowed to 
take toys home on visits.

I would draw pictures and read many Judy Blume books.
I was often grounded to my room.

I remember that my brother 
whom was 2 years old, had to lick poop off the wall.
yes, a gut wrenching omg memory. 

But, I believe in honesty. So, why bother sugar coating it?
After all, my true friends, don't care of my past or flaws. 
As, we all have them. 

Thus, I have more strength to speak up and raise my voice.

I was forced to rub my foster father's feet.
The foster parents made us call them mom and dad.

I hated it.

(Linda's Angel date 2008)
At any rate, the "BEST COUPLE"
as you will, they ended up in prison for child abuse.

This was a few years
after I finally got to go home. 

They too called my mom a bad mother.

An unfit mother who didn't love her kids. 

They told us all kinds of lies.

And I know that no matter 
how much I have heard bad things
from others growing up,

I ALWAYS WANTED MY MOM! 

My mom was a single mom.
She had me at 17 years old.
So, again, being a teenaged parent,
is  not at all easy.

Thus, another lesson I learned the hard way.
My mother would say, I told you so, 
if she were still here.

I had such a deeper appreciation for my mother 
and her strength over the years.

I realized that her pain was great 
while fighting DCFS.

And no matter how hard things got, 
at least we were back home with her.

Maybe that is why, my mother was so 
disappointed 
in my giving up my rights!

My mother actually told me 
she was proud 
of my fight that I had in me.

She was disappointed when I gave up 
on my parental rights.

I soon began to regret giving up my 
parental rights.
Howver, I stuck by my descision 
and was determined I would prove her wrong.

I was determined that the adoptive parents
 would be true to their word.


Sadly, my mother won that argument also.

I guess, it's true that mother's 
just kind of know.
You get this gutt instinct 
that never goes away.

A bond between a MOTHER
and her CHILD
starts at conception.

No One can EVER take that away!

So, what goes around does come back around.
And no, I do not trust DCFS.

I have lived it as a child and as a parent.

So, I know first hand
all the unethical nonsense they pull.

(Gabi at tball 7/2008)

You can change their names,
family and where they live.

You can never change
whom they really are
or where they come from. 




My mother always said, what doesn't kill you will make you stronger!
As, I grow a little older and a little wiser, I believe that.

I believe that even in this, God has a purpose!
I haven't quite figured it out but, there is a purpose.





A true mother, NEVER FORGETS HER CHILD!

We didn't just stop trying to write to

them or forget their important days.

We simply, found a less invasive

way to "love them from a distance"

We simply tried to be the unselfish parents.

To give our girls a chance at a normal life.

(at least I was praying that when I signed those

papers.)

And yes, the judge explained very clearly, that
the court of Illinois didn't have to hold these
people to their verbal promise.

However, we took them at their word.
We TRUSTED IN THEIR GOODNESS,
KINDNESS, AND SOULS.

(yeah, we learned the hard way, it was a MISTAKE!)


Yes, the "ADOPTIVE PARENTS"
promised us

We could be like a second family.

WE would still exchange pictures
and have visits with the siblings.

Maybe a phone call
here or there. NEVER HAPPENED!

And we did everything by the BOOK!

But, we were the young naive parents who couldn't do anything right?

That is the horrible feeling they so proudly gave us.

And I thank God for the internet.

I pray that one day they will get to read
all the websites and articles.

Then they will finally know the truth.

They will know we never for got them,
and we didn't abandon them.

I guess the adoptive parents must have thought
that once they finished 
the adoption we would forget!

Their mistake! 

So, they obviously do not know what it is to be a True Parent!

We don't have on and off switches people!

Love doesn't just fade away for our children!





"This site has been updated to ensure that what was considered to be
"Identifying information was removed!" 
 Yeah, I thought this was a perfect picture for that statement.





As parents, James and I were forced to accept the consequences of our being immature and making poor choices.
And then, I wonder, what consequences does this couple ever endure for their actions?

When will God bring justice for their lying and manipulation of our system?
When if ever, will God bring justice for the emotional abuse Christian has endured as a result of their lies?


(This one is from Chris lol he is cute)






If Roses grow in Heaven,

Lord please pick a bunch for me,

Place them in my little girls arms

And tell her they're from me.


Tell her I love her and miss her,

And when she turns to smile,

Place a kiss upon her cheek

And hold her for awhile.


Because remembering her is easy,

I do it every day,

But there's an ache within my heart

That will never go away. 
 










A few words of ADVICE from one set of parents TO Parents "FIGHTING THE ILLINOIS DEPARTMENT OF CHILDREN AND FAMILY SERVICES!":

1.Don't let DCFS put your child in a predadoptive home!

It is a scam to try and adopt your children!

Yes, the agency and foster parents very much benefit from the adoption
of our children.

And if they get your child labeled as a "Special Needs" child,
they receive even more monetary compensation.
This compensation continues until our children are adults.

2. Make it a point to go to all of your court dates, services and visits.

3. Be sure to log and document EVERYTHING!
Communication of any kind and services completed.


4. Always know your rights!


5. If you aren't happy with your caseworker, ask for a new one or a mediation!
Make them do their jobs and give you back your children!

Well, if you have this problem, be sure to fight!

You can write or call the DCFS Ombuds office for appeals.

And you can also contact the Inspector General's office
to investigate your caseworker.

You can also get put on a mailing list
for updates to DCFS rules and regulations.

And your children have the right to visit their siblings.
Even if some siblings live at home.

They are entitled to seperate visits outside of family visits.
Please take note that our constitution still upholds our "FREEDOM OF SPEECH"


DON'T GIVE UP YOUR KIDS TO DCFS, LCFS, OPEN ADOPTION, IT IS A MISTAKE!!!"

There are PLENTY OF RESOURCES OUT

THERE FOR SINGLE MOMS, DADS,
GRANDPARENTS, ANYONE!

It may be too late for our family, but, it is never too late for yours.

DON'T LET THE STATE OR ADOPTED PARENTS MAKE ANY MORE MONEY OFF OF KIDS!
AND WATCH OUT!


~ If you made an OPEN ADOPTION AGREEMENT AND TRY TO GET IT ENFORCED,

YOU MAY GET THE SAME PROBLEM, we DID~


1. False accusations

2. Order of protection slapped on you

because you are blood related to your child!

3. You will be bad mouthed as I was

4. SO, WATCH OUT!!
they might try and accuse you of being a

KIDNAPPER OR STALKER and then slander you name!
Thus, all the while tell your child all kinds of lies about you as if they were saints!



http://www.PetitionOnline.com/Cloutier/petition.html 

(Please note this is advice as parents whom have lived this situation. This is in no way legal advice.
We are not attorneys.) 

"I WILL NEVER STOP LOVING MY CHILDREN."

I would never use them for monetary

compensation as others are doing.

I am DOING JUST FINE,

without having to deal with the insecure people.

They forget that without me,

"THE NATURAL MOTHER"
whom willing gave up my rights to my girls.

"THEY WOULD NEVER
HAVE HAD THEM!"


I am the only one whom thought
of the girls without selfishness.

The adoptive parents are
the ones benefitting from this
"False Open Adoption".

They get compensated from
the state of Illinois for having my kids
labeled as "SPECIAL NEEDS."

http://margaritaandlinda-regancasilloestrella.last-memories.com/  

this is the url link to our family angels memorial website 

http://www.myspace.com/ashleyminacloutier

my initial myspace page for Ashley and Mina
This is the one the adoptive parents have
Oh, yeah, he tried to get the court to force me to 
remove my rememberance site. 

But, I won that on the freedomn of speech amendment.
God Bless our constitution!

http://www.myspace.com/lilloca7
new myspace page for 
BIRTHMOTHERS OF ILLINOIS

 
"Trust your instincts! "



Adoptive parents should be held
accountable for their actions.

What makes them so special that

they think they are invincible form the law?

Why should they be treated as Gods?

They are just as much human as we are. 



"Love is never forgetting
those closest
to your heart. "


"My Ashley I still dream of you always."